Sunday, September 27, 2015
Tonight, I felt this tremendous amount of anger that I felt the need to express. I remember that I was very pissed off at a guy in one of my soccer games. He said to one of my teammates: "Why are you like that? You are not playing in Africa motherfucker!" Apparently, he was saying that to provoke one of my teammates so he could get him off the field, but that was such a racist comment. Me and the guy who said such thing could have been good friend but now I lost all respect for him. So what I decided to do is some shadow fighting. I imagined myself beating the shit out of the motherfucker. Yes, it makes me punch and kick harder. However, since my fitness was not as good as they used to be, I feel that my kicks and punches are a little slower than usual. It makes me have to confess something though. I have been really down on my fitness lately. I used to be more courageous about exercising. I want to exercise but my self-consciousness is taking over. I am pretty sure that I can exercise being more courageous on doing the right thing but still if I start exercising again, I better be more fit than I used to be. I will need to be stronger, more flexible and faster like a real Dragon! That way, maybe my shadow fighting will look more fluent. Notice that I didn't say shadow boxing or kickboxing. That is because fighting has nothing to do with either of them. In fighting, everything is used: punch, kicks, weapons, you name it. It's not about style, it's about you expressing your body to get things done as quick as you can. I may not be as fit as I used to but at least I have Sifu Freddie Lee to inspire me to get back on track once again.