I can lift all kinds of weight, read all kinds of books, but i messed up in the face of the most beautiful creation known to mankind; the woman. I can have all the pride in the world, feel powerful as hell, but really, in face of a woman appears my weeknesses. They are the Yin to my Yang but i have a hard time reaching to them. I used to express my love for womens openly as a kid and i kept getting rejected years after years. I finaly had more power of attraction as a teen, so i had two relationship. The first lasted a short three months, and the second 5 years. The second one broke my heart and it took a long time for the scars to heal. Now as a results i'm way more colder that i use to be in term of expressing my feelings to womens. I know in a couple of days, that woman will be forgotten, like others i've met in the past but it just sucks, i failed again.
Well now i need to stop complaining about it, get my ass up, and get ready for the next opportunity. I'm aware there will be other opportunitys. I want to live love as a team with a woman. I have to be patient now. One of the shows music theme 'Letters from the sky' from the group 'Civil Twilight' is stuck in my head with this moment i shared with this special women, i wish i've only had the courage to ask her her name.