Sunday, April 14, 2013

Self Realization

Todai Lian's B.O.B came today so we thought we would really push a workout together. My wife smoked me.... I recently suffered through Thymoma a type of cancer near my heart. I knew I had lost a lot of weight during this period last year, I dropped from around 196 to 168 in the matter of a couple months. I had thought I had regained some of what I had lost and I couldn't not have been more wrong. My wife did 40 sit ups in a minute to my 35, and push ups we came out about even. (ask her for her hand stand push up video, she about knocked me out)I wont say I felt great about myself by any means that my wife was so much more fit then I am, however I am very proud of the strides she has made since starting FMK. After seeing how far she has come and how far I have fallen I am even more motivated to get back in shape. When I get back to where I was 2 years ago it will be great, when I surpass that it will be even better. I am looking forward to the training. And I know my wife is happy to be seeing me making efforts to get healthy again.


  1. They make a handsome couple. It'll be nice to see Lian go off on poor Bob

    As for your dilemma, I can definitely relate, except that I find myself looking back a decade or more to when I had good health/ athleticism, rather than just a couple years. It's difficult not to - in a way - mourn the past self in this manner, or even that past self's potential, understanding it's current absence as a kind of loss, or falling, etc. But I think those sentiments also can create an obstacle to our training, because they take us out of the present, and threaten to become excuses. Not good excuses, mind, nothing we're proud of. But excuses none-the-less. I used to be able to do 30+ pull-ups, maxed out at 83 sit-ups in a minute, I could run 10-12 miles, skip rope for 20 minutes at a time, the list could go on and on. And at some level, perhaps that past feeds my ego and identity, so that I don't necessarily have to keep it up. Living on laurels, or something like that. Until the day that you wife can do more sit-ups or push-ups, and present conditions are brought into stark relief. Chasing the renewal can be a good motivator. But it's not the best. The best is just doing it because that's who you are, right now and forever out. The best is doing it because you're just compelled to, because your body wants it, and you don't feel right without it. I myself am still somewhat stuck in concerns attached to pasts and futures. I'm trying to break that habit of thought. Thanks for the opportunity to expound on it a bit

  2. Yep, do not give up no matter what comes in your way. You can get yourself back in shape if you put your mind to it.

  3. I think that getting back into shape will be the easy part, forming the habits to keep me there will be more difficult. Like Todai Ryan has said dwelling in the past about what was is something we should avoid. What we are now and what we choose to be is what counts. I have 2 children that I can be a positive influence on. Showing them that if dad can get up and stay fit that they can too. My wife has already had a great impact on our daughter with getting into shape and I hope I can have a similiar impact.

  4. I'm sure Fai could do a lot more push ups than I can if he'd quit injuring his hand and tearing ligaments at work. At least he's still willing to try anyway.
    I'm trying to get back on the push up challenge like I should be. I tried to make a video last night and decided to try a handstand push up. I thought I could do maybe at least one. Fai tried to help me get my feet up, and I ended up on my head laughing. It didn't work too well.


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